::welcome to my world::
::This is me::
MengSoon
born in singapore
::12 Dec 84::
turning 21
undergrad suffering in NTU
::My Dog::
why is it that i have to make the decision for u?is it wrong that if i really cant decide? ppl do run all of ideas at times.i agree that sometimes i cant make a decision but u cant say that i did that everytime.sometimes is really hard to make a decision for u, if i make a wrong decision, u'll be unhappy, if i don't make one, u also will be unhappy, so wat do u wan me to do?i really dunno wat to say and wat to do, but i really upset but wat u had commented bout meu can always argue ur points, and i can talked bout my points, but somehow we always have 2 different views, somehow we'lll never have a common view.i need a break, i'm really tired.
posted @ 11:58 PM
havent been blogging for long and since i cant get into bed, so decided to write down some thoughts in my mind.recently just finished a chapter of a book, a gift from my brother and his girdfriend for my 20th birthday - The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. My pace of reading this book was relatively slow, in fact really slow, in about 4mths i only completed one chapter of it, but then I'm still proud of it because i'm a person who hardly read. in fact, those who know me well enough will be shocked to see me read haha. but after reading this one chapter (and the introduction), i'm very determined to complete this book and would highly recommend to all. by just reading one chapter of this book, i could easily apply it to my life and to other people's life.frens ard me are bugging to me to blog frequently, but perhaps to me, blogging is not a commitment to me. there are times when i'm actually free but i just don't have the commitment to blog, maybe also partly because i don't have any thoughts to write in my blog. to me, blog is a place where i can at times vent my anger on, share my feelings with others, give people a thought to think about. and also probably, i feel more commited in doing other things then blogging. that's why i'll only blog when i've things to talk about, just like now i was tossing and turning on my bed but just couldn't get into sleep, because i've some thoughts to write bout in my blog - COMPARISONis it a human nature that people compare with others very often? is it something that people choose to do and something they have to do? somehow based on my own observations, almost 99% of the people around compare a lot. a good example will be people from my battery (note: not the batteries that we used, it's company in infantry terms, guess only army personnel will understand), people from the lowest rank, all the way to officers rank compare.sometimes i've men coming to me and ask me, "Sir, why Bravo and Charlie's men can book in so late, but we have to book in so early?" if not the most common one will be: "Sir, why this group of people got so many offs, but we so little?" My answer to them is not to compare, so long they put in their effort, behave well like good soldiers they can et as many privileges as they want. I understand that comparing with others is sometimes inevitable, and i cant deny the fact that at times i also compare. but when people compare, do they realise that they always compare the good stuffs that others have, have they compare bout the bad stuffs that others have while they don't. The answer is a definite NO. Sometimes i just wonder why people dont appreciate what they are having right now, and lead a positive life. true enough sometimes u might not be as fortunate as others, u might not get what you want when others have them, life still have to go on, comparing them does not bring you there, because this world is unfair, so why not just live happily and u might not know u'll end up what u're hoping for.
posted @ 12:10 AM
decide to rewrite my blog that suddenly disappear before i could even publish it.
attended collin's commissioning parade yesterday. it was a good parade, and i'm sure to be able to partcipate inside the parade was even better. it's a parade that was claimed to be the 2nd best in Singapore, on par with SAF Day Parade, just below National Day Parade.
anyway this day brought me back all the way to last year 3rd Apr - 52/03 Commissioning Parade, a parade every officer-to-be in 52/03 Cohort was looking forward to after 42 weeks after tough training in OCS. For the past 2 weeks, everyone put in their very best during rehearsal to put up a good show on this very day. The day started brightly and everyone was in a joyful and fantastic mood. However, at around 4pm when we started our final rehearsal, dark clouds started to overcast the sky, and suddenly the rain just poured heavily. Everyone started worrying and praying for the rain to stop, it's just 1hr plus away from the parade. At 1730hrs, the actual time the parade supposed to start, it was still raining cats and dogs, so the School Sergeant Major delayed the parade for a while and wait for the rain to stop. At 6pm, it was still raining but there was no lightning source nearby, so the School Sergeant Major was given the green light to carry on. Everyone's mood was up again and we marched happily to the Form-Up Area in the rain.
However, at the Form-Up Area, things got worse, out of nowhere, the dark clouds came back again and lightning was flashing everywhere just above us, by then all of us were drenched in the rain, obviously the weather was not on our us. In the end, the parade was cancelled, the 1st batch who did not even step into the parade square to go thru the parade. The moment was not good for everyone, some were trying to hold back their tears while some could not take it anymore and tears just roll down their cheek, it was supposed to be a happy event for everyone but it turned out to be otherwise.
so fast it's already 1yr, one year anniversary being an officer hahaha!! it was good to see collin went thru the whole parade, the weather was kind to them, at least i did not waste my trip down to see him commission haha!! well, no point looking back and brood over what happened last year, impt to look forward and move coz u'll nv know what's going to happen next. anyway, i'm going to ORD in 2mths time, so WHO CARES??? HAHAHAHA!!!
posted @ 2:29 PM
argh!!! i actually blog for very long but den it's all gone after i press the wrong key!!! argh!!! sucks man!!!so frustrating!!! argh!!!maybe shall blog again later, too tired now, played 10hrs of mahjong yesterday, no mood to rewrite now also. take this time to sort of my thoughts maybe can blog better later =(
posted @ 12:30 AM
